duka yg mncengkam kembali...

apa nk jd dgn aku ni. sjk2 aku came across my x punye blog, hati aku jd mcm xtenteram. hr2 pun aku akn bukak blog dia to see if ada any nw post. why am i like thz. selama ni elok ja aku. xigt lgsung psl dia. agk nye itulah powernya panahan cinta pertama (on my side la..not on his side)
sumtine aku rsa sgt2 sucks...idiot i am. knape msti jd camni. kdg2 aku mcm salahkan dia (mmg pun). kenapa mesti dia bt hal dulu di saat2 kitorg dh jd frens balik. i.e after putus few yrs, kitorg trctc balik & trjd fren. aku dh sonok time tu sbb dpt ckp2 dgn dia, dpt dgr citer2 ttg dia..wpun hanya sbg fren. last2 dia jugak propose aku balik, bila aku accept dia leh bt buduh lak. kata mmg xboleh nk continue dgn aku. when i ask for da reason..dia ckp xtau. then when i ask, if tht so knape msti propose i at da first plce?? dia just diam. he knw my "peel" already..if mrh he will shut up & bt dunno..hampeh isnt it???!!!
kenapa dia xpernah pk pasal aku??? at least pk aku sbg seorg kwn. kenape dia sgp lukakan hati kwn sndri?? dan yg bodohnye ttp aku. kenapa aku sng2 je di perbodohkan oleh dia. i bet he always laughs at me..
deep inside..aku mmg sgt2 sedih. very2 sedih one. he left me. went for another girl. why?? sbb aku xcantik @ sbb aku o.k.u??? klu aku oku kenapa? aku ni robot ke xdak perasaan ke? habis kenapa ko hantar surat nk kawan dgn aku dulu??? klu ko xstarts..bende ni xkn jadi..dan kita mgkn akn jd best fren ever.
both of us mmbesar dlm kaw kejiranan yg sama. dr kelompok rakan2 kpg yg sama. tp sbb kisah cinta ank2 yg xrealistic..dan kisah cinta dewasa yg xberjodoh..maka kisah ini jd terlalu rumit. dan sgt2 rumit bagi aku.hanya AKU. kenapa?
i bet dia tgh dok seronok2 xigt lgsung psl hal2 lps yg trjd atr kitorg. tu yg bt aku bengang. kenapa mesti aku saja? kenapa mesti on my side.
rsanya..persoalan ini xkn terjawab..satu jer..
mybe apa yg aku persoalkn ini akn terjwb pada suatu hari nanti..bila aku jumpa dia balik FACE to FACE dan aku kasik PELEMPANG satu kt dia...mungkin pada hri itu..dendam aku pada dia akn terleraiiii...mungkinnn....
aku yang kalah oleh cinta pertama

bad news 4 an internet freak..like ME!!!

walaoeh...yesterday i try to open my frenster. but da system blocked me. but its ok..
today, i try to open youtube..also blocked. aiyah..diz time cannot stand anymore lar..WHY WHY WHYYYYYY...camne i nk bersuke rie sambil bt keje nih...isk isk isk sabo jer la. but luckily blog & cari.com xkene block. at least i ada la jugek bende2 yg nk dibuat..
hmm..seriously, i do need streamyx at my house. pengsang aku wei klu xdpt berinternet dlm sehari.

oya..lupa lak. baru mula keje but on diz coming saturday i dh kene bt keje luar kt selayang mall. dia ada bt open booth lah rasanya. adooi..but its good la. kurang2 pun..mcm belajar bende baru. aku pun xdak xperience nk bertemu public. so hopefully i can learn new things there & can also see CNS IT SOLUTION..kekekek

Chaiyo! Chaiyo!

wah..at last aku dh di hntr ke tpt yg sepatutnya aku dihantar.
tingkat bwh sekali. bhgn kutipan hasil PTG Selangor.
hari ni aku xstarts buat pape pun lg. baru dpt no id utk sistem SPEKS(accounting system for state) nmpk gayanye..smntra waktu nih, aku akn totally say by by kt sistem eSPKB la. im so familiar with tht system. skrg kene belajar SPEKS pulak..uwwaaaa...somethg new.

diorg kt bhgn nih..ok ok lah jgk. at least ada jugak la yg rajin menegur. senang gak la hati ni. xla rsa mcm loneli sgt2 ( isk..isk.sedey oo..)well, aku harap aku mampu bt yg terbaik kt sini & akn please suma org. semoga pengalmn yg bakal aku kutip kt sini mampu meng"versatile" kn lg skill aku dlm gov actg service. hopefully lps ni aku leh jd akauntan pulak..thehehe...( angan2 tu pnting beb!)

wish for luck guys..chaiyo! chaiyo! Go Go Masnie...

ketika cinta bertasbih ep 2

khabarnya buku yg aku tunggu2 ni dh berada di pasaran. tp aku pusing2 kedai buku area shah alam ni xada lah pulok. mybe masih lg di pasaran indonesia. hopefully dlm 2-3 hr ni buku ni akn ada kt pasaran. xsabar2 nk baca. dr review shbt2 seberang, katanya buku ini terlalu halus dn menyentuh hati..
mgkn betul..but we hv to wait first...eheheh

tomorrow is da big day!!

25.Feb.08 - my big day. the day tht i will starts working at PTG Selangor. nervous..im so nervous. can i adapt da changes or can i overcome all da probs tht may arises after.
well, its not da first time im like this. 5yrs before i also felt da same at KEMAS. but its diff now. im joining da state gov, eventho im fr fed. post. there will be a lots of diff for sure. and i hv to learn again fr zero.
aiyah...life sucks...& i dnt like changes! im i too selfish?

bubbling arounddd...

1.While browsing around the net. i found someone blog. the one i try to forget as he broke my heart so so so bad & deep. i m surprise tht he too got the heart on blogging as i known him as someone who doesnt like to do rubbish thngs (maybe i dnt knw him well)i know him since child and grew up together.
i dnt knw whts da prob but he left me for anothr girl( his univ girlfren). mybe im not good enuf for him. then after grad, he try to made up wit me & i accept. guess..on the day we ve plan to meet at our hometown ( he s at jb & i m at shah alam) he doesnt show up at all!!! left me waiting for him for hours. so sad & final. i knw he juz playing around. mybe he fells proud to knw tht i still accept him eventhough he had left me for no reason before.
he is my first crush..but he treat me bad. he s selfish, arrogant, stupid human being
i doubted tht he read my blog!!( as i m using diff name )so it is not a problem for me to kutuk kutuk him..BODOH PIANGGGG!!!


wish i could do like thiz to him...

The Day That Change My Career Life

18 Feb - 22 Feb 2008 @ Jabatan Akauntan Negara Putrajaya.
Report duty sbg Penolong Akauntan W27. Ingatkan 1 hari tu jek..rupe2 nye the whole week kene dok melepak kat situ tanpa melakukan satu hapa pun.rasa mcm buang masa jer. habis sengal satu badan haku sbb aktiviti aku hr2..tido kt ats kerusi..perhhhh...

batch kali ni ada 140 org. ni baru 2nd batch. sblm ni dlm beberapa ploh org ja. total dlm 200 org dh di employ as an acc asst dlm gov service. dia nk pakai 500org. so sape2 kt luo tu klu rezki kourg dpt le...tp mase lapor diri nti kourg msti buhsan like hell mcm haku nih!!! dlm ramai2 tu, ada 2 org geng haku masa jadik pem akauntan. INA & AIN...diorg 2 ni same intake dgn aku dulu..terharu gak aku sbb INA ni dia still kenai lagi aku..( sbb time induksi pem akauntan dulu diorg ni kire dlm geng2 femes lar)AIN jer xpasan aku. tp no bother la, sbb si ain ni mmg blur2 sket. :P
dan aku dpt gak 2 org close fren yg baru..1. ASPA ( org perak sblm ni kt pendidikan putrajaya) & NURUL ( sblm ni kat kebajikan mersing )& last UJIE ( dia ni freshie, sblm ni keje private, org pahang)

kt AG HQ ni parking sgt2 kritikal. aku rasa mcm nk tolak jer kete2 lain tu. 1st day kete aku kene blok. smpai aku kene ambik inisiatif lain, sibbaik gak aku ada kancil jer..leh jgk selit2 sikit. tp hr2 next..aku dh terel. aku parking kt depan bas AG. kekeke...so mmg kmpem kete aku tadak sapa2 nk blok dh.

masa hr last tu ada mjls penyampaian surat penempatan. kekek...ni yg best nk citer ni. aku dok dlm first row ( tu pun chair yg last2 jgk ) so itu bermksud, sapa2 yg dok da 1st row, dia dpt atr highest marks masa intrvw. kekeke..mknanya aku ni tergolong dlm gol org yg dpt markah tggi lar..kekekeke...( tak ku sangka pandai jugak aku ni..perasan sket!!)

so da result is..i was posted to Jab Tanah & Galian Negeri Selangor.
actually i rather afraid, bcoz for sure akn byk kerja & i'm also afraid of being bullied by others. but i must thk positively..there must be reason why ALLAH sent me there. ALLAH xkan bagi dugaan, ujian,halangan yang xmampu ditanggung oleh hambaNYA.
so..chaiyo!! chaiyo!! Go Go Masnie..

so..my fren INA - Jab Audit Dlm AG Johor
AIN - i forgot but at Putrajaya
NURUL- AG Johor
ASPA - Jab Audit Putrajaya
UJIE - PPD Pekan Pahang ( her hometown actually )
ARIK da hensem boy - PPD Hulu Sel ( but i hrd he's pleadg to
change offc ) - ARIK before workg at SUK Sel.

so da day ends, and we headed home..sad for sure but all of us will meet again for da induction around june for 1 months ( aiyahhh...sucksss!! ) hweva..below are several pic i take during da week

me & UJIE
me alone..soo bowink



menanti dlm keresahan ( tpt postg kekekek )
i was force to wear thz shoes..soo protocol
the AG

Alhamdulillah...

Alhamdulillah..Pujian bagi Allah Yg MAha Berkuasa..yg mengatur dan merencana jln hidupku..

i am among da selected candidates for the Post of Penolong Akauntan W27. Syukran..
tempatnya..xtau lagi..but hopefully it will be at shah alam area ( again.. SHAH ALAM !!!)
but i m still waiting for da official letter.
aminn ya rabb..